Addictions are always something that I knew to avoid and thought I would never let myself become trapped by. I stayed clear of smoking, drinking, and anything I could think of that might have a hold on me. I thought I was in the clear at 23 years old and no visible addictions until I realized it was 4 o'clock in the morning and I had watched every single episode of Faked It on the MTV website.
When I walked into my Communications class I had no idea I would learn about myself so much last Monday afternoon. I recall watching back to back episodes continuously of numerous shows. Greys Anatomy, Glee, Once Upon a Time, Orange is the New Black, Walking Dead, Joey and Melissa, American Horror Story, Lost, Teen Mom, House, Raising Hope, Keeping Up with the Kardashians, and even the Housewives shows and those are only a couple I can recall binge watching during a span of 7 months of hormonal mess that my pregnancy made me while my husband was overseas and I was waiting by the phone. I watched everything and anything that was on the recommended list or the "popular" list. I have read books until I finish them in one sitting or two, I LOVE magazines and do not even ask me about my life and Facebook or any social media for that matter because the fact that I check it when I get up and before I go to sleep every day alone is a sad truth that tells me I am completely controlled by Pop Culture.
That first class of the semester made me realize that I am addicted. I failed myself and let society take me over. I have a husband and a son, I work and go to school full time and I am wasting time and my emotions on shows that do not help my life or better me. I am currently working on cutting loose the chains of my addiction but it gets very hard when I have had this habit for so long; I am hoping it will not call for an intervention but we will have to see in these next few months. I am hoping this class makes me a little more aware of the underlying problem here.
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